Friend of Julie: Naked Truth

My journey on this program has been full of poetry and prose. It's a beautiful thing. Poetry and prose take time to develop, as does this journey, and along the way unexpected twists and turns may happen. The writing process often turns out different from the first thoughts one had at the start, metaphors and ah ha moments are all part of the process. The same is true for this weight loss journey.

Photo source: English Club.

There are parts of this journey that I didn't plan; that occurred unexpectedly. I hoped sugar cravings would no longer be a part of my daily life, but I could not have known how powerful it would be to not crave sweets; I could not have known how much energy I would have once I was free from sugar (and carbs).

I've written about other things that have happened along the way, things I hadn't given much thought to or that I spent a lot of time focusing on, such as fitting into seats at the movie theater, no longer needing a seat belt extension on the airplane. You've shared some of these experiences (and more) on this blog and the Facebook support group.

Many of these things are no longer an issue; changes have occurred where I no longer even think about things that used to consume me, and tire me without my being aware how much energy such thoughts drained from me. Last week I had an awareness of something I no longer give my energy that is very private, but I know I'm not the only one who spent energy this way. What I didn't know, is that without an conscious awareness I moved beyond the issue. Here's my story...

My nurse practitioner, has been asking me for the past few years to get an updated mammogram and to see an Ob/Gyn and I finally went last month. All is well, as I expected, but it wasn't until I left my dermatologist's office that I had an ah ha moment about all this. 

I've been seeing my dermatologist for over 15 years and I've done some fancy foot work to come up with excuses to get out of a full exam. It's the whole get naked thing that had me doing everything I could to avoid these kinds of exams. 

Sitting in my car outside the doctors office, I realized a major transformation has transpired. I always found excuses to avoid a full body exam, any excuse I could think of to avoid exposing my obese body.  I didn't do that this time. This time, I suited up in the hospital robe as instructed, had the full-body exam, and then proceeded to get on with the rest of my day. Sitting in that parking lot, I realized it was the same at my mammogram and Ob/Gyn appointment. This is a real change! This is liberating!

What about the rest of you? Care to share any naked truths? What kind of changes have you discovered along your weight loss journey that you weren't expecting or hadn't given much thought to until you realized the change?