While on vacation in Southern California the past two weeks, I had some incredible meals. I want to share a few stories and photos from some of the meals on my trip.
Breakfast from Baja Fresh at LAX airport. Photo by Theresa.
Airport Food

When I was at the at LAX airport, waiting to depart for Hartford, I had lots of time before my plane was boarding to search for the best choice for breakfast. I found a place called Baja Fresh. I made up my own dish, which was inspired from a menu item they referred to as Baja Bowls. My version (shown in the photo above) included spicy tender steak, scramble eggs, freshly made pico de gallo, ripe Roma tomatoes, fresh cilantro, and topped with sour cream. Man, I really know how to order off-menu!

A lesson that I learned and I want to share with the rest of you who plan to travel: look at the packaging of the food you are going to travel with carefully. I bought a pack of pepperoni sticks and a package of beef teriyaki (jerky) to have for lunch between LAX and Dulles, WA. I figured the pepperoni sticks would be all I needed, so before sitting down, I tossed the jerky into my bag that I stored above my seat. You can guess where this story's headed.

After they came through with food, and I said no thanks, I pulled the pepperoni from my purse and discovered the pack was vacuum sealed. There was no way to open the package without scissors or a knife, which the attendants did not have.

Sitting next to the window (without a seat belt extension - I still can't get over that!), I decided I'd just wait until we landed to eat. I tried to busy my mind by watching a movie, but I it was going to be seven hours before we landed. At some point both people in my row got up to use the rest room, so I jumped up and grabbed my jerky. Yes, I could have asked them to move so I could get up, but I wasn't inclined to do that at the time. I may have asked if they hadn't stood up.

Dinner with Friends

The most challenging meal for me was the night I had dinner with old friends, shown in the photo below (yes, that's me with another new dress - thanks to Aime). They key word here is friends. If I can't ask my friends what they're serving for dinner and be frank enough to talk about other alternatives, then I'm not sure how I'll ever survive the rest of my journey. 

I took a deep breathe and I asked my friend Mary to put her daughter on the phone. Nina was cooking dinner, so I asked what she's cooking. I then told her it sounded wonderful, but I don't eat gluten-free noodles, so her lasagna wasn't going to work for me. Was there something else we could arrange? Nina said "no problem, I'll cook you a nice piece of chicken on the grill." It was that simple.
Theresa with Southern California friends George and Mary. Photo by Nina.
What was so incredible was that when Nina and I had a few minutes to ourselves, she thanked me for asking her for another option. She was so gracious. She said she could see how much weight I've lost, even since I saw her two months ago, and she was happy to support my staying on course with the program. That's a good friend! The was delicious chicken too!

BTW, when I called, I had every intention of saying I would bring protein for myself. I wasn't expecting such a generous response. 

Last year when I visited with Mary, she took me to an In and Out Burger where we ordered burgers from their not-so-secret menu. I went to In and Out this trip as well, and, as you can see in this photo, they wrap these burgers with lettuce instead of a bun!
In and Out Burger; lettuce wrapped instead of a bun. Photo by Theresa.
Hot Tub Breakfast

I cooked during my vacation too. Here's a breakfast I made and then ate by the hot tub, after a morning walk to the pool. Years ago I got a number of my friends into frothing milk for their coffee, so when I visit, I don't have to travel with a frother.

Scrambled egg with Parmesan, dill, and chives, with asparagus and tomatoes. Photo by Theresa.
We did a lot of grilling at another friend's, almost every night for a week, which I really enjoyed.  I love eating outside in the yard. Living in a condo, I don't do that. 

Exercise Mojo Explained

This is not related to my travels, but I want to explain a comment I made to an earlier post. I referred to "mojo" in one of my comments about exercise and I want to explain what I meant by "mojo."  I was playing with words. What I meant to say was that last summer (2011) Julie gave my group an exercise suggestion to help us. I referred to Julie's "exercise suggestion" as mojo, meaning to be humorous, but my meaning was lost in translation. Sorry!

In any case, I had a few more thoughts about this that I explored tonight. For whatever reason, I didn't take to Julie's exercise suggestion last summer, but I did start to exercise in October.  I was curious about the time I started to exercise versus when I had last seen Julie. Looking at my calendar, I saw Julie a week before I started exercising on Oct. 25. I know because I logged my couch-to-5K progress and my sessions with Julie. What makes all of this (slightly) interesting is that I was out of town when I started to exercise and later that day I found out that Aime started a couch-to-5K that same morning. We both thought it was a funny coincidence, but looking back now, I realize we went to the Oct. session together. My guess is Julie gave us another exercise suggestion and that time it worked for me, as well as Aime.
Oh my! Did I really post a photo with me in a bathing suit? Yes I did. Yikes! I can't believe I did that. Today I'm going to write about negative self-talk, so I can get it out there in the open, out of the dark corners of my life and into the light. I am changing my life and I no longer need to stand in the shadows.
Del Mar, CA. Photo by Theresa
I'm currently at the same size that most of you began your weight loss journey, so it is a mixed bag when I see your photos. I'm inspired to see that you went from the size I am now to my goal size (8). At the same time, I look at my photos and think about how big I am now and I'm horrified at how large I was six sizes ago. I feel great about my progress and then when I see my photo I have mixed feelings again. I see how much I've lost and I feel good, but I also see how much more weight I have to lose and then I don't feel so good.

But all is not lost! I have positive thoughts to push me forward and away from these negative ones, some of which come from within and others from the support of this blog and the Facebook support group. Thank you all for sharing the way you do. Your stories inspire me and encourage me to stay positive about my journey, which is fantastic.

Other positive thoughts come from friends I've known for years. While visiting my friends in southern California, where I lived for eight years near people I've known for 35 years and others I've known all my life, they said some wonderful and positive things to me. Here are a few of my favorites:
  • Wow - you look so different! 
  • Do you realize how much you've changed?
  • This is the first time I've seen you in a dress in twenty years! 
  • It's wonderful seeing you wear fun clothes again!
It was fabulous to visit my friends and for them to see me being active once again. During my visit, I found that I was filled with negative thoughts again and again. I can't walk as fast. I can't move as fast. I don't have as much strength in my arms. One night I was to sleep on a futon on the floor and I was caught up in thoughts about how difficult it was going to be getting on the floor then getting up again in the morning. But then I would remember:
  • I am changing my life. 
  • I am moving. 
  • I am moving faster. 
  • I am building strength in my arms, legs, and my core. 
  • I did get in and out of the pool. 
  • I did go kayaking and swimming.
  • I am an active person once again. 
  • I did my stretching exercises last night.
  • I am living life in the light.
It's not about being the fastest or the strongest. It's about being strong and living my best life. It's about living life in the light instead of in the shadows.

Another positive experience happened the day after I returned from my vacation, at the Holyoke mall. I discovered that Aime was right when a few weeks ago she told me that would be my last time shopping in the woman's section of Macy's. After trying on a few items in the woman's department, I wandered over to the other side of the clothing area and when I went into the dressing room to try on 18's and 16's (nobody stopped me at the entrance) I was ecstatic that I found items that fit. I didn't buy them because I just wanted to know if they would fit, I wasn't ready to spend any money. I may go back in a few weeks and try on a dress that I liked, but I wanted it to be loser around the hips.

Woohoo! Now I know what people mean by shopping therapy!

Oh, and it's pretty safe to say, as several of you have reported recently, I too lost weight while on vacation! I'm moving into the light and the lighter side of life!
Del Mar, CA. Photo by Theresa
I'm back from California, well rested, and ready to finish the home projects I put on hold a few weeks before my vacation. One thing I'm not willing to put on hold any longer: exercise. During my vacation I was more active than I've been in a decade. I return home with renewed strength from walking, swimming, sailing, and kayaking. A soak in the hot tub every night was great too!
I look at this photo and think, wow, if I look this big now - how big did I look when I was six sizes bigger? Okay, enough self criticism. I had a blast as long as I didn't look in the mirror while wearing my swimsuit.
The last time I was suited up and went in the water was 2006 and that was because I was in Hawaii and, obese or not, I was not not going in the water while in Hawaii. Ever since I was  very young I was in the water every chance I could an it's incredible to be back in the water once again.

My motivation to get into the pool during my vacation: I'm participating in a mini-triathlon at work. This means I committed to a specific distance of walking or running, swimming, and biking, over a six week period. Since my Long Beach friend goes to aquatics three times a week, I asked her if I could join her at pool to do my laps. One morning I even arrived at the pool at 6 am! 

Getting into the pool was difficult, as I am not as flexible as I used to be. Sitting on the floor has been difficult for me and I had to get over that on day one at the pool. I managed to sit at the edge of the pool, but then I froze for a few seconds. Was I really going to be able to slide in? Wait. Really? When did this kind of fear hit me? I LOVE swimming. It wasn't fear of the water, but of the process of getting into the pool. I've been so inactive for so many years that my body has become stiff and unbending. I told myself I was going to get over this right that moment, and then I pushed off the side of the pool and into the water. Once in, I was like a fish in water. Getting out, I climbed up a ladder, which defied a few laws of gravity, as I have no upper arm strength.

All of this is embarrassing to admit, but I suspect I'm not alone with these kinds of issues, so I thought I'd explore this a bit further with all of you and ask if any of you have had similar experiences. Have you?

During the past ten months, I've done more running than walking for exercise, but while I was in Long Beach I walked to the pool (and everywhere else) at fast-pace and it was invigorating. It helps to have a friend who walks faster than you do. We walked to the pool and back, three miles round-trip, during which time my favorite sneakers gave me corns. The solution: buy a new pair of sandals and (as I do at home) switch out my shoes daily.

I always travel with a pair of sandals and a pair of sneakers, and I always put comfort before beauty when it comes to shoes. This trip was different. This time I packed my favorite sneakers and a new pair sandals that are both beautiful and support my feel in all the right ways and just a tad shy of being orthopedics. I broke in the sandals in a month before my trip. On the plane, I wore sandals that I could easily slip in and out of at security and while in flight; they are not as supportive as my foot doctor would suggest, but they are comfy and beautiful. Keeping up with my friend as we walked about town, not so easy in these sandals, but hey - I looked great! Ha!

Why am I writing so much about shoes?  While on this weight loss journey, I discovered other areas of my health that also need my attention: resolving my feet and my knee issues, and building strength in my upper arms and in my core. Exercise, I now realize, isn't about losing weight, but about gaining physical stamina. I want to have a strong body so I can be active and live a long and healthy life. Exercise, it turns out is key. Ha-who's not at all surprised to hear this? What I'm saying is, okay this isn't the first time any of us have heard this, but this time I really get it.

After dropping a couple sizes last spring, even before I started to exercise, my feet hurt and I wanted to do whatever I could to resolve my feet issues before my vacation in Alaska. I went to a foot doctor and to a specialist to find out why I had pain in my right knee. My doctors gave me stretching exercises for my feet and knee, which I've done about three times since then.

A year later, my feet issues resurface from time to time, and they really surfaced during my California vacation. I've decided I'm SO ready to rid my body of these aches and pains. I'm ready to incorporate those stretching exercises into my daily routine, so I can maintain and expand an active lifestyle. I've been saying this for several weeks now, but today I put my words into action. I will not go to bed tonight until I've done my stretches!

BTW, thanks for keeping this blog going while I was on vacation. It was hard to blog from my iPhone, tiny keyboard and all, and I couldn't upload any photos, which drove me crazy. In the next few days I'll reply to many of the comments that I wasn't able to respond to properly while I was away. I've been following the Facebook thread as well. I even made yogurt Popsicles today, a take-off from an idea on the FB support group. Thanks for sharing recipes there as well as this blog!

A few weeks ago, I blogged about Exercise and I encouraged you to explore new ways to exercise. During my vacation, I took my own advise and I'm happy that I did. I'm going to look around my area and in Rhode Island for places to rent a kayak or a canoe. I really liked being on the water this way. Now that I know a) I can do it, and b) it will be more and more enjoyable as I strengthen my arms and my core, I'm going to fully explore kayaking and see if I prefer a canoe or a kayak better. Perhaps next year I'll buy one!

Have any of you come face-to-face with physical limitations due to your weight? Or, on the flip side, have any of you discovered you are no longer physically restricted because you've lost weight?
This week was such a challenging week emotionally for me.  My son and my husband both got hurt within a 12 hour window of each other which meant an awful lot of time spent in the ER all the while juggling my other two children.  In the past if I had a weekend like this, I would have run to my bucket of ice cream to console me and that would get me through.  Not this time!  I am proud to say that I not once thought of eating anything that is off program.  I actually sat down on Monday around 12 to try and get some work done while everyone was sleeping and realized that I had not eaten in 24 hours.  I know that is almost as bad but it hit me for the first time that I now eat to survive rather than live to eat.  This is such a great feeling.  Though this may be a little silly, I finally realized how much Julie was helping me.  It is not always about the measurements or the size cloths that I am in.  It is about the baby steps that lead to a better me.  Not depending on food to get through a tough time was one of the steps that I needed to get through before I could continue.  I did it!

I read a contest in my Oprah magazine this morning and thought I'd share it with the rest of you, especially those of you who have lost a lot of weight. I know the deadline is close, but I hope a few of you enter, because who couldn't use a jean makeover?

I don't have time to write and essay while on vacation, I hardly have time to write this, but I hope some of you go for it! Here are the details:
Enter the “Denim Style Star” contest for a chance to win a trip to New York City, a NYDJ denim makeover, and a custom photo shoot! Simply upload your photo and write a brief essay describing why you should win. One winner will receive:
  • A trip to NYC with one guest
  • A denim makeover by stylist Dale Sudakoff, founder of Dalestyle, Inc.
  • An opportunity to model NYDJ’s latest fall fashions in your own photo shoot
  • Images will be featured on Real Simple Offers Facebook page and NYDJ.com
Meanwhile, I'm still in Carlsbad, enjoying a relaxing visit with friends. Vacations are a great thing! I packed two tops that are way too big for me and those size 18 carpi's are tighter than I would like them to be, but all is well otherwise.
Last week while visiting with Mary, my childhood friend who now lives in Long Beach, Mary showed me photos she had of me over the years, to help inspire me to see how far I've come on my weight loss journey...
In October 2002, we traveled together in Italy (Mary took this photo)
South Hadley, MA, September 2010 
With Long Beach Mary, July 2012
Decades ago I took a "health, mind, and body" workshop and over the course of six weeks I met with a  group of about 30 others three times a week for three hours. At each session a different speaker talked to us about  health related topics. We learned how to meditate to reduce stress. We learned about nutrition. We learned a lot during these 18 sessions. The really great part, for me, was what we learned about exercise.
Running is just one exercise option; find the type that you enjoy and just do it!
Photo by Theresa
One of the doctors told us "there is an exercise out there for everyone, you just need to find out what it is". To help prove his theory, every workshop began with a different form of exercise. With this group, I walked, jogged, played tennis, swam in a pool, learned a bit of yoga, and explored a  handful more forms of exercise.

Before I left for my vacation, I thought about all those workshops and I made a decision that this year I would explore more exercise options once again. While here in southern California on vacation this past week, I began the journey and I've have had a lot fun along the way. Last week I walked a mile and a half to the pool, swam 24 laps, and then walked a mile and a half back home again. I was home having breakfast by about 10 am and I still had a full day ahead of me - and tons of energy.  

Getting in and out of the pool was difficult, as I have no upper arm strength. My first day at the pool, I pushed myself to squat down and sit on the edge of the pool and pushed myself again to jump in. I've grown so stiff over the years, and all of these movements that used to be so natural to me years ago, easily could have stopped me from getting in the water.

In fact, I know this is why I've stayed out of the pool for the past decade. Oh, and wearing a bathing suit in public too. As I sat at the edge of the pool, I knew I was going to get into the pool and didn't let my hesitations stop me. Instead of sitting and debating if I could push off, I just bit down and jumped in. It wasn't pretty, but I was in! Getting out defied the laws of gravity, but I did that too. Swimming laps was exhausting and my arms burned, but I kept going back and forth until I couldn't swim another lap. Sore arms aside, it felt terrific to be in the water once again! 

If my arms weren't already feeling the pain after 3 days the pool, I went kayaking. My friend helped me sit in the kayak and later helped me get out. That was the hardest part and the part I was most fearful of--what if I couldn't get in -- or worse - what if I couldn't get out? I pushed beyond the fear and just did it. What a blast it was. My friend is a great teacher and taught me the ropes and I did not tip over, another fear - how would I get back in if I tipped over? I didn't need to answer that question!

I have been a couch potato for the past fifteen years, but I wasn't always a couch potato. It's been great getting exercise by moving my body in new ways and having a blast. It took me 9 months of being on this program before I started exercise, but I want to encourage you not to wait that long.

For those of you who haven't been ready to start exercise, I encourage you to create a list of all the different types of physical activities you can think of and start trying them one by one until you find a form of exercise that fits you. If you feel too out of shape to begin, consider walking five minutes from your house and then five minutes back, then slowly increase your walking time, even if it's just a minute more a week. Take it slow, but start moving. It may not be walking for you, but find something you can do and start doing it.
Sitting at Starbucks in Carlsbad, CA, where I could hear waves crashing against the rocks, if only the music wasn't so loud. It's an overcast day, but I'm on vacation and a few clouds won't spoil my mood.

When I first sat down, a man next to me was quite chatty and friendly. He told me he's "never been this weight before" and I wasn't sure if he meant he had gained or list weight. Then he told me about a cool phone app that he uses. You speak into the phone, for example he said "Starbucks chicken salad" and it tracks your meal. "It's really easy," he said. "I've lost 30 pounds and it was effortless!" He then saw his wife, got up and they left.

There was no time to tell him I've dropped close to a hundred pounds.

This was a good reminder for me, that as excited as I am about my weight loss journey, not everyone wants to know how I got here. Even if they need to lose weight.

Thanks for Sharing Dude.

Anyone else experience this type of "kindness" from strangers?