I wrote this post while I was in a plateau. I wrote as if I already dropped another size, to visualization out what I want to happen. As it turns out, most of what I projected did happen and I suspect the parts that didn't will manifest soon. I updated this piece this morning, to clarify what did [comments in parenthesis reflect the update of what really happened].
Here's how I jumped off the plateau wagon...

I followed program 100%. I remembered there are no gray areas. In fact, I remembered a lot of things. There is no such thing as "slightly off program." You're either on or you're off. It's that simple. If you not on, or in the river, as Julie calls it, you're either going to maintain your size or your clothes are going to get tighter. I guess I was maintaining [in this case this was not true; I just couldn't see where I'd lost weight]. Hey - wait - I've been calling this a plateau! Same difference - I was not losing weight.

I did my own "refresh" by following advice from others who have been successful on this program. Jennifer, Melissa, Meaghan, and others have posted on this blog and on the Facebook group great feedback.

To jump start things, I did three days of red meat and no veggies [reality: I had tomato sauce with peppers and onions and added corn to some of my food]. Jennifer has said this many times and today, as I write this affirmation, I made a list and then went shopping for my meals for the next three days.

I followed Melissa's advice about getting my ratio of veggies and meat back in line. I too was eating too many veggies. I wasn't keeping that balance, so bite for bite was the trick to get me back on track. I took a hard look at my fat intake too. I wrapped up the bacon I had in the refrigerator, and put it in the freezer; I stopped having bacon for a full week and I watched my fat intake closer. [Bacon isn't the problem, it's the total amount of fat intake that I was consuming; bacon plus butter plus plus half and half plus mayonnaise plus other fats combined in one day. All these are allowed on program, but we do need to watch our total fats.]

I renewed my commitment not to have cheese for the rest of November and this time I stuck to my promise. From there forward, I was able to use cheese only as a condiment. I don't bring cheese into the house unless I need it for a specific recipe. I'm happy to say cheese is no longer a problem food for me. [November isn't over yet, but when shopping last night I paused at the cheese counter before passing it by.]

Catherine shared she had several plateaus and that she came to accept plateaus by remembering Julie teaches us this is how our  body heals, recovers, and rests for the next change. Amy reminded us that our bodies need to reabsorb skin, veins, nerves, etc. Once I remembered this is part of the journey for some of us, I stopped being so hard on myself for being on a plateau; this weight loss will take as long as it takes.

I followed some of my own advice too. I put progressive photos of me together and posted them to this blog. I printed a hard copy and put it on my refrigerator to remember where I've been. I put it away when I had company, but pulled it back out when the left. {reality: I haven't printed the photo yet but I have plans to do so this week.] I have a copy of the 4 photos side by side on my iPhone and I looked at it every day on my way to the gym, to keep me motivated. I looked at it on days I didn't feel like getting to the gym too.[reality: I look at the photo on my iPhone or on the blog just about every day and I show the photo to my friends. When I said why I put the photos together like that, one friend said when I'm feeling like I haven't lost any weight to "just ask us!" It seems I'm the only one who can't see that I have continued to lose weight.]

I made plans a couple months ago to visit with a friend to go shopping. I hadn't been in the stores since early August and was wearing the last of the hand-me-downs that didn't fit in spring. I was so ready to have new clothes. Because I followed all the above advice, when I went to the stores (Marshalls, TJ Max, and thrift stores) [more on what stores I really went to in my next post.] I was elated (understatement) that I was able to wear size 14's! The jump start helped me drop weight instantly! I skipped right by size 16's completely! The last time I was in Marshall and TJ's - there were very few thing that fit me, even their X's weren't fitting. Not the case this time! [reality: I did skip right over the 14's in tops, but I'm still wearing 18 pants. Again, more on the real shopping in my next post.]

Woohoo! Plateau over! I'm in the river and going with the flow. I've stopped getting in my own way and I'm thankful for all the friends of Julie who helped me get back on track!

Reality: I wasn't really on a plateau! I was losing weight above the waist, but since I hadn't tried on smaller clothes since August, I didn't see this. While visiting one of my friends over the weekend, she suggested I take in a few inches on my top under the arms, that I alter my pants at the waist by adding darts and take in the seams along my upper thighs as my pants are too big in those areas. I only tried on 2 pairs of pants at the store, so perhaps I've moved into a 16 in jeans? I'll have to go try on jeans soon and see if this is true.
I had breakfast few friends of the Key Hypnosis contributors on Saturday and it was great to see everyone and how they have changed. I thought it would be fun to put up our other gathering photos.... woohoo!
11/17/12
07/27/12

06/23/12
04/14/12

Frustrated with not dropping more weight, I decided to follow my own advise: take a photo and view it beside  heavier photos. Okay, here we go...yikes...side profiles....on the treadmill...sleeveless...in gym clothes...
I started size 30/32 and am now in 18's.
I've had photos taken of me along the way so I can see my progress, but I feel a little naked posting these images. Pushing that aside, I  can see a significant change in my body since that 2006 photo and yes, even since the August photo. It's the size of my stomach that kills me! I cringe when I look at these photos, even the one taken a few days ago. What encourages me though, is looking at photos posted on the Facebook support group. I see others who started at the size I'm at now and I know if I just hold on, I too will get to my goal size.

Yesterday, as I continued my inner dialogue about what I need to do to move things along, I'll write more on this when I get to the other side of this hold and drop another size, the Wilson Phillips song Hold On kept running through my mind...
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day,
If you hold on
I just started and had my first session - I already feel better
Being on hold is something none of us like. We don't like being on hold on the phone. We don't like being told to "hold on" while we're waiting in line. Holding onto someones heart - love it! Holding onto weight, not so much.
Photo source: An Extraordinary Adventure
I'm on hold once again. I know. I know. Really - I know! This weight loss process is a journey. We have to have patience. Blah, blah, blah. I get all that. I'm trying to understand, once again, what's behind these long periods of time that my weight loss is on hold. One theory is that when we're the most frustrated, we're on the cusp of a significant drop in weight. Love that. It's true too. Most of the time.

Just the same, I haven't had a weight drop since the early August and my patience is running out. I looked for help by looking up the definition of the word hold. One meaning of the word hold, according to the Merriam Webster dictionary online, is to maintain position, to refuse to give ground the defensive line is holding. Hmm. Sounds familiar... I am maintaining my position. I am refusing to give ground. So, what's up? Why am I holding instead of losing? The dictionary isn't going to help me here.

If someone asked me this, I'd say things like "Eat more meat. Eat less veggies. Are you eating too much cheese?" So, I start by reminding myself these things. I am having meals without veggies and when I do have veggies, I make sure there are less veggies than meat. I haven't had cheese in the house in weeks and I don't eat cheese when I order out.

I also ask myself "what would Julie say?" The first thing that comes to mind is that Julie would ask "are you eating a variety of foods or the same things over and over?" Okay, so here's an area I can improve on. I favor coleslaw as my primary veggie. I eat meatloaf, meatballs, chicken salad, and a handful of dishes way too often.  I need to plan a variety of veggies rather than having the same one several times a week, week after week.

My internal voice has been asking "how much have you lost?" Julie suggests this kind of craving is akin to wanting sugar; when that this happens it's another clue that we're close to dropping more weight. I'm ready... and waiting. I'm not getting on the scale, so no worries there.

I'm not aware of anything I'm eating that's off program, so, I called and scheduled a refresh for early December.  I was in for a refresh a month ago and at that time I didn't ask for help because I really felt I was about to drop more weight. I was positive I'd see a drop any day, but nothing has happened. When I go in for the refresh this time, I'm asking for help with my holding pattern. I've heard others talk with Julie about holding weight for several months. Julie says it's the body healing when we're on hold, but I decided to go in for the refresh because I want to see if she can dig anything up, through her line of questions, that can help me move forward.

I know I'm not alone out there on this. Any words of advice from those who have been here and finally been able to move forward in their journey? I'd love to hear from you!
Anonymous asked:

I am attending my first class with Julie on Thursday. I have just finished my second and last class for smoking and it's working great, since my first class I haven't smoked.
I was wondering if anyone else has done the smoking and food so close together.
I have been a mediator for a long time, and one of the most basic lessons about doing sitting meditation is that by eliminating all distractions, and making a commitment to staying put, you are left with all of the noise, internal movies, mind productions, which are rattling around in there are running us all the time, unconsciously. 

I am finding Julie's process very similar.  With such a stripped down way of eating, so much of the obsession taken/given away, and a commitment to staying with it, I am noticing so much about the patterns which have run my physical life for decade after decade.  Before, when I would simply clamp down control on all of the cravings, I often lost weight.  But it didn't feel as if I had changed anything in the depths of this addiction.  The essential relationship between me and food felt the same-just that I had put it in jail for the moment.  But always the fear that at any time there would be a jailbreak, a prison riot, and I would be "out of control" again.

There is something about how Julie teaches us, and about, once again, that wonderfully cheerful send-off she gave us after the first group of "Have fun suffering", that is profoundly different and feels like a deeply meditative process.  I am not denying the cravings.  They are there from time to time and, as she said at the refresher last week, they will probably always be there at times.  What I am developing, in this new practice, is an ability, as they say in meditation circles, to "sit with" the cravings.  To experience them fully, not pretend they aren't there, but slowly learn that they are just feelings.....conditioned experience, screams from a body that may mistakenly think it is going to starve, automatic triggers from seeing or smelling something.  They are strong, but I don't have to be convinced by them.....I can see through them, let them know that in reality we are not starving, we are taking good care of our self, and that my behavior does not need to be controlled by these feelings.

With Julie's help I have been able to squarely commit myself, I think for the first time, to dealing with the sense of deprivation, to knowing that, as she says, it will not kill me.  That "sacrifice" gives me the opportunity to learn so much more about myself, and about human nature in general.  Aside from the weight loss and improvement in physical health, this learning is an incredible gift.

Don't know if all of this will make sense to anyone else, but wanted to share it.

Eva
The last size change I had was in April of this year, having gone from an 18 to a 16. Since then, NOTHING!

I have been frustrated, discouraged, angry, doubtful, MAD and so on...

I have been following the program to a T, having to adjust at times amounts of condiments and veggies, making sure portions were correct.

Still nothing

I went to my doctor's in June and in August and got weighed in there. They are great about respecting my wishes about not knowing what I weigh.

I had to go again yesterday and got on the scale backwards again. This time the nurse was just bursting to tell me something. She almost dropped her teeth when she saw the weight. She told me she can not believe the amount of weight I have lost from June and August. So with those comments I know I am doing something right!

I sat in the parking lot trying to figure out why my sizes weren't going down if the weight was coming off. What was going on?

Well, I think I may have figured it out, and at this time I am limited on what I can do about it.

It is called "empty skin around my middle"!

Unfortunately, my highest size was a 26 so that was a lot of stretching there.

Meagan has written about certain undergarments that help hold in and not kill you in the process. So I went and checked them out. I went to Target and got Barely There shape wear, the high waisted ones that come right up to the bra-line.

I am pleased to announce I have a size 14 skirt on now THAT I CAN WEAR IN PUBLIC!

How great is that?

At first I felt like, wearing this doesn't make it a true size loss. But if the skin is empty, it isn't like I am faking the size. And I think I remember Julie talking about wearing stuff to 'hold it in". So until it can all catch up, I am hooked on these shape wear undergarments!

THANK YOU MEAGAN for that great tip!

So............TAAAAAAA DAAAAAAAA!

I have started wearing 14's!

(and begins the problem of not all 14's fitting - my continuing complaint about uniform sizes) But I am wearing a 14! OH MY OH MY! who would have thought...